~ Tilly ~

4th November 2005 ~ 3rd August 2012

After a mostly horrible twelve months, with this last month being the worst since it started, Tilly finally went to join dear friends at Rainbow Bridge. I still cannot write this without crying, and it will be a long time before the pain we feel from missing her fades.

This is how I love to remember her ~

Cute

She loved to be wrapped in my jumpers.

Happy

                             

Cuddly

(my arms miss holding her)

When she and Our Boy were pups together

Playful

Sun Worshipper

Sleepy

Funny

(she used to help herself to raspberries

from our garden too)

With Friends

(I like to think of her and Buzz chasing sticks together,

as they used to when they were both alive)

with her sister....

and just so beautiful

A part of our Family

Our Little Girl

Tilly Trotter

Tilly Billy

Tilly Babes

Darling Girl

Sweetie

Tills

Till

~ We Love You ~

~ Ach-y-Fi ~

The above title means yuck....but multiplied.

Tilly on the left, with her best friend and walking buddy, Dilwyn (Tills and Dills)

Over the last few weeks, we have been worried about our darling little Tilly~dog. I haven't wanted to speak of it...haven't been able to.

She has been having seizures. On Sunday evening she had a bad one, then immediately went into a worse one, and then again. Nothing I did worked....Reiki, Craniosacral,....and really I was too distraught to be able to centre myself to be effective. Taking her to our vet, who is a friend and who Tilly adores, was traumatic, and we were very relieved to reach there. We were at the surgery for over two hours and she had been given sedation, which she reacted adversely to, pacing and crying, the opposite of the effect it was supposed to have.

This continued after we came home, and I stayed up with her all night while she paced compulsively, unsteady on her legs, not recognising me at all, not wanting comfort or contact of any kind. This was so distressing because she is normally very cuddly and affectionate. Finally, at 5.30am she gave in when I held her and fell asleep for an hour. Her behaviour was such that I was really scared that she had had brain damage, but when I spoke to Billa a few hours later, she reassured me it was caused by the drugs.

I asked My Man to dowse the Bach Flower Remedies and made up a treatment bottle for her. The effect was immediate...of course it was, and if I had managed to get myself to think straight, and used them immediately, it would probably have given her and me a lot more peaceful night too.....it's playing on my mind that I fell apart as I did. The pacing stopped and she slept for most of the day - Monday. We have been using them along with the tablets that she is on and she has been becoming more and more 'our Tilly' thankfully. Today, she has, so far, even been clear of the mini fits which involve just her head and mouth. She is asleep on my lap as I type this, one handed, with her head tucked under my arm :~)

I have emails and comments to respond to, and will get to them, but I'm still staying in the living room with her at night, sleeping when she sleeps, but very lightly....you know how it is when you are nursing someone who is ill.....and I'm tired....Ha! as Jude would say!

~ Spring Equinox Walk ~

A happy, bounding Tilly from two weeks ago

Tilly and I went on our monthly walk with Jude and Dilwyn today. It is our first meeting this year and it was so good to be back...I think our last one was October last year.

This mistbow spread its magic over Newport (Pembs) for over an hour. It's arch was low and long, and at times its colours were really subtle and faded. Jude and I thought it a most appropriate symbol to welcome the Vernal Equinox.

We had intended to go here:



Carn Ingli ~ Angel Mountain, but it did not want our company today, so we went from Newport to Nevern on the Plgrim's Walk, feeling it's ancient past as we walked in ghostly footsteps.

I found the cottage and its surroundings that I had described from my imagination, in my notebook when I was eighteen, as my perfect place to live.



Tilly did one of her favourite things ~ swimming after sticks thrown into the river...oh and her MOST favourite thing....rolling in badger shit...hmmmm.

When we reached Nevern, we sat in the peaceful churchyard, with the music of the brook and birdsong for company, and drank my Chai tea and Jude's soooo delicious profiteroles.



Hope you have a wonderful Equinox too.

Cariad mawr

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