Wednesday, 12 January 2011

~ Fifty and wearing Green ~

It happened and I'm still here! aaand I am so thrilled I can wear green at last. I love green ~ it's the colour of the heart chakra, the leaves on my tree friends, grass, sometimes the sea....

I can wear it now because my colouring is changing with my has gone from raven black to a much softer reddish brown and lots of silver....I have silver wings and I really like them :~)

So. Fifty has brought a reckoning, a questioning, a realising that ~ crikey ~ now I really am grown up! Forty wasn't like that; it passed without much notice for me as I was so involved with parenting our son, who was only 7 at the time, and also concentrating on my work as an aroma and craniosacral therapist, working towards being a herbalist. I had to let that go due to the expense of it.

I've read on a couple of blogs how some people would like to let their 'story' go.....the one that they have carried around with them for years. I realised that I have been wearing mine like a comfortable old coat and it is time to make a new one with different colours ~ maybe green! ~ with a better material, and cut.

One of the things I realised as I was doing my reckoning, is that I have been behaving a little like a victim in the last few years, and I don't like it....not one bit. It's not how I see myself and not who I want to be. I am creating art, but have not had the courage to get it out there....not locally and not on something like etsy...even though I have had an etsy account for some years, I've never used it!

I have also seen on a few blogs that some have chosen a word for the coming year.....mine is courage. I need to let my courage shine has been swamped over the last couple of years; I've allowed myself and my life to become small, safe, boring....I no longer live a bohemian life....but I want to.

Our boy is 17 now and does not need me as much and so I have more time to find me again. I'm excited about that.

We have not come here to take prisoners,
But to surrender ever more deeply
To freedom and joy.
We have not come into this exquisite world
To hold ourselves hostage from love.
Run my dear,
From anything
That may not strengthen
Your precious budding wings.
Run like hell my dear,
From anyone likely
To put a sharp knife
Into the sacred, tender vision
Of your beautiful heart.
We have a duty to befriend
Those aspects of obedience
That stand outside of our house
And shout to our reason
“O please, O please,
Come out and play.”
For we have not come here to take prisoners
Or to confine our wondrous spirits,
But to experience ever and ever more deeply
Our divine courage, freedom and
~ Hafiz, from “The Gift”

Blessed be. H x


  1. Green goes good on you, Helen! Love that sweater... did you make it?
    My son just turned 17 on Christmas Day... those years went way too fast!

    Have a great capital "C" day.

  2. Hi Gwen and thank you :~) I found the sweater in a car boot sale (do you have those in Canada?) It cost much less than it would have to buy the wool to make it. I love it so much!

    Your son's birthday is the day before mine :~)

    Have a great day.

  3. I think the e-gremlins ate my first comment attempt. Grumble, grumble. So - Happy belated birthday! And may I say, 50 is looking very stylin' in green!!!! Green has always been my favourite colour. Reminds me of nature.

    I do hope you share some peeks at your artwork on your blog. I would love to see it.

    Blessings and courage...

  4. Ha ha ~ thank you Wabi~Sabi Wanderings :~)I will try to put some photos of my creations on soon...and thank you for asking.

    Best of wishes to you and your loved ones for 2011 ~

  5. LOVE your green outfit - it's fabulous! And yay for COURAGE! Life is an incredible journey, isn't it? We get older but never stop growing. Therein lies the fascination and excitement.

    Wishing you a courageous, bohemian and extremely wonderful decade...

  6. Oh THANK YOU Helen :~))) Your words made my day ~ ~

  7. This is beautifully written. I love how you always write from the heart, right where you are.

    Happy Green! Happy Birthday. :) Here's to bohemianity!

  8. Ha ha ~ YES! 'here's to bohemianity' (love that)! and thank you so much for your lovely words Brooke :~)))